fire & nothing

helens hood rainier adams all cued in jagged succession

and here below only thanks to the

clear thin winter permanence that is this flight ceiling.

it is a classic ansel gelatin. black brindle puncturing

skin perfect white and patterned by rises and falls and

a single source spotlight. the untouchable texture is palpable.

black moloka'i shards nested in shifting sands. i hover

just above my hands and navigate their peaks with 

the swingset slight of the waves. feeling sharpness with thought.

there is nothing of the void between us but the void is.

it is water still it is air still. galaxies and atoms are

mostly nothing either but we found them and named them.

we found them with magic. the magic of light focused

as vertical streams of fire the very fire that once birthed these

dormant for now family of four. peaks.

wry grin

all that tonight stood
still in the restless wind
was the moon. full and naked
in the cloudless black. the dirty
three still in my ringing ears. warren
he conjured these whips
with those hips and danielson kicks
and let loose the lipstick
and whiskey stains on our
starched white shirt of a city.

monarchs

this was the primordial sleepless city
where the crickets never quit
under bright sun bright moon

on they sing accompaniment to
willow joy by great lake breezes
like a thousand crosswalkbuzzerboxes
chirps here deliver mannahatta shame

orange and black and orange
and orange and black
these living leaves they fall
upward and against the wind
to make mention of gravity
of journeys greater
than any anymore might take

the waves here lick
muddy hard lake sand
to wash the runny shit out
brown in
and delay swimming
for another day
instead they gift
bleached plastic shell things
left heedless to sway
with the flows they are buried
under black paste cattail humus and
in white gulls stopped guts

twice yearly they stop here
in subdivision and thicket
coached to rest then flutter
by timeless calls of the cricket

erecting roofs in a park in the rain

the rains went and 
the temperature drop dug deep
for the thickest of late season fabrics
from blackness inhabited by dusty gear.
pumping the propane sucking the batteries
igniting the chords of wood. buying more
and more ice to pack animal product bits
until the last brunch. we deliver
home to the woods. we take without
asking borrow without knowing and
embrace the feigned perpetuity
of hope. we deliver home to the woods.

about a pile of white grey ash
three wet squares our tent footprints
this here is how we left no trace
amongst the moss fern rusted ring
and swollen picnic table permanence
unknowing of the theres
that gave up their creatures' breath
their deep buried sunlight
their plastic polluted labor hours
to bring us a setting less touched.

we drove other fuel here
under open clouds and
blinding pouring bearing unease
of what to do if our arrival found
no relief from the elements
our conditioned rooms humbly shrug
for us. there, rains always stop.
there, spacestation city habitats
create voyeurists of us
in prepackaged safari zoos
with inch thick safetyglass
only permitting looks at things
we did not make.
if rustic and real are synonymous
what then are parks?

the rains went and saved us
from an arrival inconvenient 
for having to acknowledge all this life
responsible for that convenience
of restoration in ours.

waiting for victory rose

flat. and in pain i quit cities
and their failure to own
their secrets. hope in change
rides on the contrails of
dragonflies born yesterday
and the sun keeps setting.
i dreamt of Great Lakes
and dunes i haven't yet walked
from canada or from one divided state
it is no matter. the world is
this canada
finally shrugging
american hemmed handmedowns.
the world is this canada
buying flying weapons
grasping for Northern sovereignty
digging deep holes of austerity
to seek the false throne
encrusted with mineral extraction
and the ice keeps melting
and the bears keep swimming.

damn these dreams only
dreams of land
where property has no meaning
trees fall on their own
and souls are redistributed
to nonbipedal things.
damn our stalled
momentum and the
incapacity to keep it.
we are too many
and the dandelion
cannot weed itself.

beck

i used to think of beauty of
british columbia and its verdant shadows
and lands distant until that night i
met your son forever four.
we listened to rock music jangle sounds
that birthed our testosterone
sounds tolling a mediocre ring to usher in
this decade they forgot to press vinyl.
wet meat avocado peeled
an unnoticed decadent pairing brought
on the ceaseless new flows of athabasca tailings
and fires of frackwater. we swallowed
all with saki warm enough
to unshelf that tiny photo album.
your son knew only time of perpetual hope
frozen by his aged innocence
and given over to no man. he was
as a machine of stoicism 
shrugging every tussle they threw
wearing his ochre skin
like a deep space swimming suit of courage.
but his demons did finally come around

and when they did
i know he gave them his soft cheek
and offered quiet embrace.
on that night i met your son
i fell in love with you
each and together.

chesterman beach

tofino sands move only for the water
hard as clay they refuse
to abandon the memory winds swept
generations ago without abandon.
those ten thousand who once knew
this broken peninsula as home
also knew the fir tips
salmon berry
miner's lettuce
but not by this tongue

its former names are lost to me.
above barrel waves wearing basalt
against this deep crescent
licked with salt and dead things bleached
these have no sound.
i learnt of sea grass sway once
how it stood as ocean floor forests
thick thick life
i learnt how all this left when europe arrived
but i learnt not the why
the company of these sands
are no longer a metropolis of sea otter
cougar
steller's jay.
daily now the white-head queen stands
waiting for the extinct rivers of coho
waiting for our inevitable leaving
atop the loneliest snag

and watching for the flash spark
of day snuffed out by our rotation.
i am not here to resurrect

the alberni clearcuts around their ashen bone scatter
i am not here for the perch purchase and the paving
of hidden drives to peak season units and backyard beaches
i am here for the kinnikinnick
the courting of tides
and dreams of naiveté
that time travel might some yesterday
set things right.